I thought I'd post a short entry. I want to thank everyone for your comments. They were thoughtful and caring and right on the money.I followed every suggestion and have signed up for various message lists including a gratitude list, affirmation groups, etc...
I'm glad no one told me I just need to think positive. It's hard to think positive when ill and having neurological issues. Actually, here's a positive thought: "I'm positive that I'm very ill."
When I feel a little better I'm going to write about a post an article on the dangers of the positive thinking (when its extreme).
The truth is I'm using every tool available to deal with all of this.
And to Vanessa who came over on Saturday and a new friend who called me out of concern Thursday-thank you for your support, concern, and validation. It really helped me clarify and solidify things.
I've been feeling very ill since a week ago Monday. I don't know if its another virus or a flare up or what. I've been reading other people's blogs as well as a thread on lymenet and find it rather fascinating how many of us are suffering from a flare. I wonder why.
I have a return of night sweats as well as terrible sweating throughout the day. I get a bout of chills but only on one part of my body then it will move to another part. For example my calf will get the chills, then later it might be my thigh etc...It's quite strange. I'm going through two t-shirts per day.
The sweating could be do to five things: 1) viral infection 2) bacterial infection 2) babesia 3) decline in autonomic nervous system functioning 4) messed up hormones, and/or 5) detox (maybe the methylation protocol is starting to kick in?).
I'm so fatigued it's making me dizzy and faint at times. It really feels like a virus.
Yesterday I had my brain PET Scan. On Sunday I was supposed to eat a high protein diet consisting of absolutely no sugar, milk, fruits, veggies, carbohydrates. I basically ate nuts and a little turkey.
I hope to get the results soon. The one good thing about this level of fatigue was that I had little energy to get nervous.
Saturday evening our kitty had a mild seizure.
To sum it all up. I feel bad physically and still having a rough time emotionally but I really think its this latest virus is doing a number on me.