Tuesday, May 15, 2012

A Different Life

I missed ME/CFS awareness day because I was moving. I moved in to my new place Friday. I haven't had internet or tv since. Last night I noticed I was able to log on to the internet for a very short periods of time (about 10 minutes at the most).

As I was being driven over here by my brother-in-law I couldn't help but reflect on my journey in September 2010. My then partner and our two kitties all drove out to the house we had just bought. I was laying down in the back seat because I didn't have the energy to sit up. I had my beloved 17 year old kitty on my chest. I was filled with so much hope and excitement about the new house and all the possibilities. And then there I was 18 months later with no partner, no house, the kitties both died. I was well enough to sit up for the ride and I had our dog next to me.

I like the apartment although I'm beginning to be concerned about mold. I'm having quasi vertigo like symptoms again. It could also be from the fact that I added in Azithromycin last night and also because I restarted the Neurological Health Formula. That part of the methylation protocol affects me the most. I started at 1/4 dose on Saturday. It's also been an incredibly stressful 6 months so I could be crashing. But mostly I'm worried about mold. That would be disastrous for me.

I'm also experiencing muscle spasms in both legs and at times my neck and left arm. I have no idea what's going on. It's not related to my back as I'd originally suspected. The spine surgeon showed me pictures of my recent MRI and said though my disc is bad it doesn't seem to be pressing on any nerves. I've been taking a muscle relaxant 3 times per day for awhile but its no longer effective. The muscle spasms are quite painful as well as incapacitating. I think its related to problematic mitochondria. I've been walking more than normal lately and after a few minutes both legs become weak and my muscles start cramping up. I've emailed my doctor to see what he thinks as well as what I can do about it. It's not related to a lack of magnesium or potassium.

Back to the apartment. I like the apartment a lot. It's older and has few electrical outlets. It's a small one bedroom but just the right size for me. And its really expensive. Unless I'm able to bring in about $400 per month the most I'll be able to live here is one year so I'll be doing research on where to go next. The most important thing for me was to get my own place. I really like the neighborhood. Everything except doctors and a hospital are close by.

There's a quirky maintenance guy who I like but he's very homophobic and was going on about how stupid it was for Obama to say he supports same sex marriage.

The owner is a jerk. An utter jerk. When I was offered the apartment by his secretary (he was sitting right there reviewing my application) I told her I had a dog-a golden retriever. She asked how much she weighed. I told her but I minimized it. When the owner saw me with the dog he got quite angry and threatened to raise my rent, up my deposit, or have me or Chelsea leave because they don't allow dogs. He was supposed to come by and repair one of the electrical outlets that isn't working. He and his girlfriend drove up to show another apartment. I tried talking to him about the broken outlet as well as the fact that I still don't have a key to the front door. The guy wouldn't talk to me! His girlfriend had been friendly before was cold. I apologized even though it was not my fault. I've never had problematic landlords like him before.

What the landlord doesn't know is the people living next to me have 2 dogs. The large pit bull tried to attack Chelsea last night. The guy had to physically restrain his dog. So that makes me nervous.

The landlord has still not repaired the outlet and has not given me a key to the front door even though I've asked him 4 times now. If I hadn't signed a pet agreement where I also stated I have a golden retriever he would have kicked me out. This I heard from the maintenance guy.

If I find a great place soon I'll be moving. I think he will have no problem with me breaking the lease.

Although I like the apartment a lot its not worth it for me to stay here if the landlord will not do repairs or even something simple like giving me a key to the front door. He also refused to write a letter authorizing a cable/internet company to turn on the line. I can do without cable tv but I must have the internet. His secretary was kind enough to write the letter and signed it. There are other problems but I won't go into those.

I don't know when I'll have internet again and hopefully I'll be able to publish this post. There is a starbucks about 2 blocks away but my legs won't make it that far. They are just too weak right now. I'm having to walk Chelsea to grass about 1/2 block away 4 times per day (at least) and I think that's taking a toll on me. The mitochondria can't manufacture enough ATP to keep up with a slow walk. I'm concerned I'm going to need a wheelchair or scooter to get around. I wonder if they (mitochondria) are being clogged up by toxins.

I'm going to try posting this now. Hopefully I'll be back soon...


ME said...

Sounds like the move has been quite traumatic Warrior, do take care.

At Home on the Rock... said...

A lot of things to deal with, Terri. Hopefully he (the landlord) will be easier to get along with (ie do the things he's supposed to do...like give you a key and fix the broken things) very soon. Hope you settle in ok...and try to not over do things.